Btw I don't have a therapist.

Kinda want a chiropractor rn...

Hello! Surely, there are no psychologists (at least in our Mech Arena Community team), so unfortunately, we can't effectively help you. I'd like to recommend you find a professional therapist as mental health matters. If you don't have enough means, I belive that it's possible to find some free volunteer services on the Internet.

My personal piece of advice is to have more positive emotions. For example, play Mech Arena! The game may distract you from the life problems that irritate you and help your brain relax for some time.

make friends, with right people.