Btw I don't have a therapist.

Kinda want a chiropractor rn...

Hello! Surely, there are no psychologists (at least in our Mech Arena Community team), so unfortunately, we can't effectively help you. I'd like to recommend you find a professional therapist as mental health matters. If you don't have enough means, I belive that it's possible to find some free volunteer services on the Internet.

My personal piece of advice is to have more positive emotions. For example, play Mech Arena! The game may distract you from the life problems that irritate you and help your brain relax for some time.

make friends, with right people.

Hey man, you don't have to live up to anyone elses expectations. I don't know you yet I can say that you have some good qualities. For one, you know how to communicate and you are also intelligent enough to realize that something seems off kindred. Don't be so hard on yourself man. Be comfortable in your own skin and the he** what anyone thinks.

You are your own therepist!

Whoever you are, whatever you're going through, just so you know. I'm proud of you, you're doing good and I don't want you to ever feel like you're not good enough. You are. Don't stop, ever. Keep going, even when it feels like in your mind there is no point. There is. You are the point. Seriously, don't let anybody or yourself ever tell you other wise. 

the game CAN definitely make your mental health worse. avoid giving dangerous advice, when it comes to mental health. his was a sarcastic quote, to tell you how much, MECH ARENA, can undermine anyone's mental health.. frenzy leads sooner or later to schizophrenia.